.....
moon as bright as day
back behind the conifers
sap scented creosoted fence
splintered excitement tingles
to be alone
she shows me hers
and I show mine
thumb hooked market stall cheapness
with cute cartoons stretch
we crane necks to inspect
the unexpected
as clothes rise and fall
her face the size of the sun
our den becomes the world
....
IV
deafened, we scan the sky for breakage.
what lies seen and unseen between us
is behind,
forgotten, only in the now beneath
the tin roof of this moment will be remembered.
dragging you back, from the village,
which idles, in the fold of the horizon -
seen through cascading rain
we see those possibilities -
seen and unseen - rejected, taken,
carried in the bulb you fed me
and the promise of you - seen and unseen.
....
maggots
after a morning
throwing knives at trees
and each others ankles
we climb onto the bus shelter
roll on our backs
and watch the clouds
one looks like a dragon
another like dr mopp in his car
but our interest is taken
with the
fifteen furrows away
amid the seed potatoes
we uncomfortably giggle
at the squirming rats
on the poisoned pigs
penknife at hand
we all say we like it
especially
the rats eating out the eyes
after a dinner of rainbow
and spaghetti hoops
we drop bricks off the bridge
daring the younger kids
to show their face
....
oxygen
it's a funny age thirty seven - me not her -
she's fair enough if not to brag of
and from what I can see as a I blow in this pipe
her tits are alright for something to look at
my carbon monoxide is down
would I like to stick with the patches
or try the gum
these frigid types always ask dumb questions
what I would like is a half corona- hand rolled and cuban -
to accompany three hours spent with a rounded bordeaux
then a bit of sleep apnoea to scare the missus
instead I pick up the prescrition
wander home inhaling the dog-shit and woodsmoke
tongue hanging out like an hormonal teenager
.....
shift end
'not a good night' she says
handing out the bowls of chocolate hoops
'is that coffee hot'
leave your willy alone
eat your breakfast
'mary died' get dressed - in that order - thank you
toast pops up you were saying
'I'll drink this and go to bed'
.....
suffer little children
it is always the slightly gritty scrape of clarkes shoes on stone
mixed with the lingered perfume of candle wax and brasso
and a subtle hint of incense from the high church vicar
long departed
to tend richer flocks in greener pastures
which strikes me upon return
at school christmas service we would squeeze into dark wooden pews
nudging ever eastwards
to chalk the elbow of the unlucky outsider
on the damp whitewashed walls
and sing into our sleeves of sock laundering shepherds
or the magi following the star by bus and taxi
and on scooter
bibbing his hooter
later I gathered from a church poster
attempting to lure my return
that god is in the smiles of the happy children
but in this church with the vicar and sir
unamused by boys singing no-A no-B n-C noel
we learned not to mock the headless saints
but to fill the holes in which their crumbly bodies stood
with respectful song
at the price of the slipper or the cane
.....
To Tenby
that moment at the end of bleary chivvying
summer special on my lap sweets already half eaten
in that moment when with a thunk
unclunked or clicked we were sealed into our holiday
brown vinyl burning legs below my snake belted shorts
father's cigarettes virginian sweet ashen flicked midges
caught on the wind sucked back through the window
sugaring minnie the minx or ginger and numbskulls
all the while mother asking 'are you feeling sick'
brown paper bag ready in the footwell
with the tupperworn buttered ham sandwiches
into an A-road world of trees and hedgerows
square council housing jig-saw cottages new build bungalow
portico piles down long yellow driveways
and tractors and caravans bicyclists and muttered
white knuckling grip cursing lost time
through country towns with one set of lights
church clocks and women wandered markets
wearing chemically printed polyester
i spy sky road car 'can I see it'
and groans for the unguessed three cows drinking
five miles behind
as we ingested the size of the journey
and digested olympic breakfast pancakes fizzy orange
tartrazine brightness free lollipop
the afternoon sibling squabbling
the threats to sit still and put your feet down
then songs would begin
how young my mother was
as she slipped a fox's glacier
into my fathers mouth
......
Watercolour
the london we shared was barefooted on the kings road
edging even'd to sloane square guinessed and giggling
always carefully establishing to those guessers
that our tokens of affection were friendly gifts
on sundays we would accidentally meet regularly
on the same bench in kensington gardens by the pond
always at two for effect you read barry waiting
I liked that it showed awareness of our situation
we filled a fruiterers bag with satsuma skins
as I revelled in your rendition of richard bach
interrupted on the sand track coming back
by two fine cavalrymen exercising their mounts
......
Triangular Trade
occasionally I will shake my tambourine
crying sisters and brothers repent
repent the day of judgement
was last tuesday
and now we are all damned
but mainly I avoid angels except on utube
and live a quiet life of contented
drunken joy
sometimes I help others and sometimes
when asked directions
I deliberately send them in a circle
so they can shake their fist
through the help the aged window
but mainly I don't do that
as selfies annoy me
almost as much as other people's faces
I'm changeable you see
aren't we all
well you not so much
I draw the line at meths and weak lager
preferring the middle ground
though if I am feeling extravagant I will drink dutch gin
distilled by the desperate
each stone bottle contains a suicide note
and when corked
the factory throws them into the sea
without regard for profit
then mermaids collect them
taking care not to break their nails
and deliver them to remote scottish islands on winter nights
when half mad scotsmen put them in boxes
and send them south to tangiers for distribution
the gin is terrible
but like the henna smoked by teenagers
it's the thrill that makes it worth it
and the license it gives
you do have to be off your head to pay for a bottle
but the blurred words of desperation
and the knowledge that creatures real and mythical
have died to bring you poor pleasure
makes it worth the need to top up on shiraz
if you want to feel anything at all
......
esus Wept
somewhere between the 23rd psalm and another
call for revival the trollopian
charicature we call vicar peeping
out of the choir stalls while the x-factor
lot were busy working their repertoire
of hymns dull groovy and modern the four
horsemen of england joylessness on
guitar scantity on comb and paper
zeitgeist penning tunes on the amped
stylophone feminism droning bassoon
a blackbird flew through the unrepaired roof
crapped in the communion wafers then
sang nearer my god to thee very sweet
a revelation the bassoonist clubbed it
on the grounds it was methodist scum
promoting rape there's always an excuse
to general cheering from the vicar
service resumed eclipsed sun shone again
......
stunted
the visitor from porlock is offered
coffee cream ernest thanks more tea friendly
we talk of poems spoiled by quick visits
from excusory friends oh we laugh now
and then when seen in bitter night of thoughts
regret those marvellous swift turns bobtailed
the ascending fright of the lark the craw
of the raven we wonder why caffeine
ten beats to the line is not the poem
we were meant to write
.....
Trombone Voluntary
On blue days, when the sun breaks the clouds,
I like to take my lunch by the courthouse.
You might call it a fetish. I crunch crisps
and criminally profile the coming and going.
What really draws me though, is the statue
at the centre of the square to Delius.
Every time I promise to listen to his music
and every time I never do. Instead, having eaten,
I circle the bronze leaves, with the green
and amber glass, and marvel at the beauty
of art; of art in a city without much -
even Sir Henry Irving died to get out.
I'm never sure if you are allowed to touch
civic displays. There's no red rope. I want to -
I want to - to contrast the heat and light,
find imprints of the sculptors fingers,
embrace the shadows of the stained glass
on the shit strewn slabs. But - I don't -
instead I jab it gently, so that if a court official
challenges me, I will say, "just seeing if it is bronze".
Today I am disturbed. At the mouth sized stage
of my second sandwich, a girl sits down,
on my bench; next to me. I at one end,
hand in crisp bag, sandwich hovering.
She takes the guitar from it's case, and
for no reason that I can see, begins to play
the Adagio, Concierto de Aranjuez No 2,
I know this because it was on an advert
and I liked it so much I bought the CD.
Not being the rude sort, I set my lunch aside,
and listen. All the while admiring,
and appreciating, Amber Hiscott anew.
She played the whole thing perfectly.
I thanked her, and said she should try busking.
"Fuck Leeds", she said.
.....
kissing gate hedge thin view
boats high grounded untided blue rim
red bottom unsailed
snake rope buoys elbow lean
estuary channel
dippers waders
kingwild strut
bob head
peck peck
strut
.....
Small
always whiskey bottle beside the steel ashtray
the mirrors under the settee arm end out
butter melting by the fire dogs hair blankets
and the smell of roasted pheasant simmering
soup clink teacups with red hunting scenes
always the woodbine tarring steel ashtray
and the brown fingers pointing gesturing
at the story or blue joke the room too small
cannot hold the joy or the sorrow and dogs
too small for the rough logged broad hands
always tinned biscuits smelt soft coconut
whiskey tea dipped chin caught crumbs
mopped by the tongue increasingly toothless
and the gentleman's brush back dash hair
trimmed in the kitchen adorned pink towel
always hanging on the door back washed
with dog blankets when the laughter
reached its peak it would cut at a swiping
hand brushing a dog from it's growling
reflection mirrors under the arm of settee
.....
Still in Motion
reflected in the water the tree remains a tree
beneath the white cloak of insulating spring
phantom as mice not seen peripherally
the fawn comes to drink walking on ground
so heated so heated hot horse shoe hot
hoof on hoof burn slushed snow hoof
crackle bracken crumble break
tonight I will sleep in a barn converted
a bunkhouse on white sheets
my caked boots napping fat swollen
the drinking fawn a framed laps
licks up the mirror dabbled ripple
revertibrate the spine bud branches
.....
Departed
she longs once more for the evening gent
top hatted in spatted of literary bent
of warm summer sunsets and picnics in kent
as she waits for the nurse to come
for the carefree days for the strolls on the moor
for the suitable suitors who knocked at her door
when everything stopped at a quarter to four
as she rings for the nurse to come
.....
Fishing a' Dusk
phutter phutter phutter phutter
John follow the ribble o' the swan ascenden
from his vantage by the willer
rose dusk encolours the midden grey lake
the swan circle once
forlorn tha' call
afore
beaten a path to the other pit
the pouring o' tea is deafnen
a groan in his stomach echo
plop plip plop bob the float
as the sun's descend afire
on the moon the London train
beats rushes on rice
for clockbound folk
as bubbles rise pop rise pop
the surface bait is taken
.....
Third Party
Please ignore my age, my receding hair,
beneath these teeth I'm debonair;
take my hand and I'll take you there
on a dirty weekend in Brighton
Across this partition my love has grown
whilst settling insurance claims by phone:
if not Brighton - Nice or Rome
would be the place for us.
You really are the sweetest thing
I'll rent an MG, wear threads and bling
and if the hotel has Karaoke I will not sing
Sweet Caroline - a song I know you hate.
Oh please Miss Munt ,Oh please Miss Munt
I will not to rhyme your name with pudendum
I know I am a terrible runt
but I promise to change my underpants.
Your centre parting, the top of your head,
your glimpsed camisole lace, my lust has fed.
You, in your headset, I dream of in bed
whilst sleeping with my wife.
......
White Field Green Sheep
he's gone wandering again yon down by the river
she think fear knows when the dog come back
with lead and red collar but no four fingered hand
the special is up calming her down nodding
whilst them as nosey agree to casually look 'afar
as they brave twice daily rain on the school run
he's gone yon again wandering lost int' a river
of landmarks and place names and places and
oh it's too much to be here he parks on a bench
waiting the brass bronze river is the same yet yon
dog is gone thither daily rain remind him of mother
to get up school gates for help for Julian and tea
wandering lost again by the yon river bank gone
away in a fairy ring yonder away with the tide
over not yet until a face he half recall greets him
takes him by the arm to yon waiting white car
bids the uniformed children shush talks all the way
friendly everyday familiar until they got home
he's gone wandering again yon down by the river
she think fear knows when the dog come back
with lead and red collar but no four fingered hand
the special is up calming her down nodding
whilst them as nosey agree to casually look 'afar
as they brave twice daily rain on the school run
he's gone yon again wandering lost int' a river
of landmarks and place names and places and
oh it's too much to be here he parks on a bench
waiting the brass bronze river is the same yet yon
dog is gone thither daily rain remind him of mother
to get up school gates for help for Julian and tea
wandering lost again by the yon river bank gone
away in a fairy ring yonder away with the tide
over not yet until a face he half recall greets him
takes him by the arm to yon waiting white car
bids the uniformed children shush talks all the way
friendly everyday familiar until they got home
.....
Above the Everyday
Exhaustion
gives him the eyes
of a trapped sparrow
as he asks directions
I scratch my belly
like the ape I am
advise
he take the low path
up here
my hurrying son
glows like the rain
as we share
biscuits
exchange landmarks
solve deep questions
like who casts the longest shadow
we watch them go
him in front
her with the map
and the attitude
following the lower path
they recede
like sweet papers on
spilt lemonade
legs thwack
the wind pulled grass
my hurrying son dances
side on side
the track
everything he sees described
stone
view
sun cloudened sky
Exhaustion
gives him the eyes
of a trapped sparrow
as he asks directions
I scratch my belly
like the ape I am
advise
he take the low path
up here
my hurrying son
glows like the rain
as we share
biscuits
exchange landmarks
solve deep questions
like who casts the longest shadow
we watch them go
him in front
her with the map
and the attitude
following the lower path
they recede
like sweet papers on
spilt lemonade
legs thwack
the wind pulled grass
my hurrying son dances
side on side
the track
everything he sees described
stone
view
sun cloudened sky
......
he had no arms
no legs ate with a long spoon
drank like a trooper
and peed in a bag
he said he was lucky
not to have my disability
i agreed
no legs ate with a long spoon
drank like a trooper
and peed in a bag
he said he was lucky
not to have my disability
i agreed
.....
Circus School
They had a unicyclist at school;
'made a hell of a mess of the skirting.
Lorraine's avoiding their Sandy;
on account of the Next sweatshirt.
'Don't make out you didn't see me.'
is passed in Chinese whispers,
up and back among the herd
moving daily to the nursery gate.
Love's young dream, he's not
right in the head - and no one
forgets her threat to show her kids
on Kyle - smile, always smile,
smile for the camera and the court -
SMILE! and the world laughs at you.
They had juggling lessons on Monday
to help them with the new maths.
And there she is, six months on;
in pole-dancing pumps and Boden.
The Lorelei of Back Butts Lane.
She's the one, she's the one, that's her
who bought the Bernados bargain;
and had to the cheek to flaunt it.
Butter wouldn't melt, though Sandy
spreads it, thin as the black bagged
castaways she gave Lorraine
in sympathremacy. 'Barkin',
'barkin', she wants to say, but
Brian's heart complaints stop her.
The kids are learning lion taming
in the canteen: bring your own snap.
They had a unicyclist at school;
'made a hell of a mess of the skirting.
Lorraine's avoiding their Sandy;
on account of the Next sweatshirt.
'Don't make out you didn't see me.'
is passed in Chinese whispers,
up and back among the herd
moving daily to the nursery gate.
Love's young dream, he's not
right in the head - and no one
forgets her threat to show her kids
on Kyle - smile, always smile,
smile for the camera and the court -
SMILE! and the world laughs at you.
They had juggling lessons on Monday
to help them with the new maths.
And there she is, six months on;
in pole-dancing pumps and Boden.
The Lorelei of Back Butts Lane.
She's the one, she's the one, that's her
who bought the Bernados bargain;
and had to the cheek to flaunt it.
Butter wouldn't melt, though Sandy
spreads it, thin as the black bagged
castaways she gave Lorraine
in sympathremacy. 'Barkin',
'barkin', she wants to say, but
Brian's heart complaints stop her.
The kids are learning lion taming
in the canteen: bring your own snap.
.....
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